There are a few people in my life that know me really well....my kids, Steve, a few friends.....and now, I am getting to know myself too.
I dwell on the worst case scenarios.
I dwell on things that have yet to happen.
I vacuum too much time away....dusting and floor washing is in there as well.
I don't think much of a lot of my past behavior or my mothering skills......that might fall under the quotes from my mother..."Some day you will be sorry for what you did and said, rosemary. Remember that I told you so." I remember a lot.
Along with eating all of the wrong foods for years, stress probably more than anything else caused my heart attack.
Well, it is time for all of that stress/worry/bulls#i! to be over.
I bought two packages of Power Thought Cards because my friend Kathy sent me several quotes in an email...and....while emailing back and forth with my friend Sue she put this paragraph at the end of one message.....
I do not mind drop in company because what you see is what you get. I am not the neat person you are although I used to be. Chip changed all that. I wanted to play with him rather than dust etc and it has remained that way. I do vacuum every day as squirrels make a mess with the seeds and shells and 2 dogs in our little house…Someday when I am on my death bed I am going to be glad I took the time to play with squirrels and probably won’t care if there is dust on the end table. (Sue is a squirrel whisperer...she takes in ill and injured squirrels and has a healing touch).
Here are a few quotes that I might tattoo to my forehead, forearm or my hands...
I have the right to take up space and to exist. I take in and give out life fully and freely
I am supported by life itself. I let go go the past. I trust the process of life.
No person, place or thing has any power over me, for I am the only thinker in my mind. I will choose thoughts that keep me serene.
I don't want anyone to worry that I am going over to a side you won't recognize...you know, getting all weird and stuff.....I'll still be bitchy and whiny...just maybe not as much.