There's rosemary, that's for remembrance.
William Shakespeare: Hamlet, Prince of Denmark



Saturday, September 25, 2010

The facts of life....

There are a few people in my life that know me really well....my kids, Steve, a few friends.....and now, I am getting to know myself too.

I dwell on the worst case scenarios.

I dwell on things that have yet to happen.

I vacuum too much time away....dusting and floor washing is in there as well.

I don't think much of a lot of my past behavior or my mothering skills......that might fall under the quotes from my mother..."Some day you will be sorry for what you did and said, rosemary. Remember that I told you so." I remember a lot.

Along with eating all of the wrong foods for years, stress probably more than anything else caused my heart attack. 

Well, it is time for all of that stress/worry/bulls#i! to be over.

I bought two packages of Power Thought Cards because my friend Kathy sent me several quotes in an email...and....while emailing back and forth with my friend Sue she put this paragraph at the end of one message.....

I do not mind drop in company because what you see is what you get. I am not the neat person you are although I used to be. Chip changed all that. I wanted to play with him rather than dust etc and it has remained that way. I do vacuum every day as squirrels make a mess with the seeds and shells and 2 dogs in our little house…Someday when I am on my death bed I am going to be glad I took the time to play with squirrels and probably won’t care if there is dust on the end table. (Sue is a squirrel whisperer...she takes in ill and injured squirrels and has a healing touch).

Here are a few quotes that I might tattoo to my forehead, forearm or my hands...

I have the right to take up space and to exist. I take in and give out life fully and freely

I am the perfect age.  Each year is special and precious to me.  I shall only live it once. I am comfortable with growing old(er).

I am supported by life itself.  I let go go the past.  I trust the process of life. 

No person, place or thing has any power over me, for I am the only thinker in  my mind.  I will choose thoughts that keep me serene.

I don't want anyone to worry that I am going over to a side you won't recognize...you know, getting all weird and stuff.....I'll still be bitchy and whiny...just maybe not as much.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Have I mentioned that......

....I am now at a 5 incline on the treadmill and a level 4 on the recumbent. Not bad for an old broad with a faulty ticker.

....all of the ferns have turned and the cottonwood trees are dropping leaves like crazy. Rain has been coming down in sheets for 2 days.

....when I did that stress test the end of July I was given a paper that said I was radioactive for 3 weeks after the test.....specifically to show TSA folks should I decide I wanted to take a trip shortly after having a heart attack.

....Steve bought a treadmill for me. It was a surprise...has not arrived yet...and to use a phrase of my dad's "We'll be paying for it over time." Which means he charged it.

....we are going to take up the carpet in the downstairs bathroom, be sure the floor is smooth and even and then put down tile.....all by ourselves. Yup, that's the plan.

...the trip I wanted to take to the East Coast for our anniversary has taken a slight detour. Using miles and points we are going to take a trip to Maui instead. Maui is like Vermont in October isn't it? That house I dream about all of the time could be on Maui couldn't it?

....our Subaru Forester is PAID OFF!!! WE HAVE THE PINK!!!!!

....I am proud of Tyler and Bethany. Both done with high school, are going to college and both have jobs! YAY!!!

....I filled out the application to volunteer at the Library. I will only shelve fiction I told the HR guy Craig. He's OK with that.

....the hummingbirds have left for sunnier spots south. We STILL have those ugly June bugs smacking into the windows however. Hello....June bugs....it's September. Bubbye....

....my daughter will be starting a new job in October. She has had the job from hell for the last year and will leave behind a ton of stress. She works in the mortgage business.

....my oldest son and Bethany may be coming for Thanksgiving. It has been a long time since we had anyone other than a cat or dog share Thanksgiving turkey with us.

....all of my petunias have died; too hot, too cold, too much Idaho I guess.

....my friend Molly has the emotional strength of 25 people. Her husband has been diagnosed with bladder cancer after making it through a heart attack and tonsil cancer. Molly, as usual, said they will get through this and come out stronger for it. Amazing.

....I am glad to be alive; glad, grateful, happy, sometimes astounded, and blessed to be alive.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Little girls are.......

.....made of sugar and spice and this one is wearing a summer dress she made with her mommy.  Mommy (Mariko) has a matching blouse and they wore their outfits on the runway at a fashion show for the gymnastic studio where Sachiko will be in a competition this weekend.

 Little boys are much simpler......they are made of KARATE!!!!!

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

What we did over summer vacation.....2010

Summer has gone by rather quickly. We really didn't have much time to enjoy it what with "the event" messing with our plans. But, a picture is worth a few bucks when it comes to summers in Idaho so here goes........ 

Mimi Louise slept in the heated bed 24/7.
Fuzzy napped on the back of the couch and kept track of everyone.
Emma spent her days on the clean towels in the bathroom and only ventured off her perch to lay in the cool bathtub.
Guido was outside in the playpen nibbling on grass and catching bugs and then barfing on the carpet.
Wesley and Violet acted like they were BFF's......but they are not.
Steve and I looked at dog butts on our walks every day.
We picked a lot of blackberries....most of these aren't ripe.
We are still watching the peaches ripen.
We watched this lovely lady make lots of ...........holes in trees.
 And in case you have any doubts that Mz. Summer Days has left the area, well, here is what I saw on my afternoon walk today.   









Tuesday, September 07, 2010

It's wonderful, it's marvelous.........

This Labor Day extended weekend was spent laboring and partying. The lawn was mowed, the garages swept, the squirrel feeders refurbished and the lower windows squirted with the hose because I don't do windows. It was also the annual neighborhood get together hosted by the unofficial matriarch of the neighborhood. This matriarch is the mother of the Wonderful son....you remember the Wonderfuls don't you; my former neighbors that are simply wonderful? No wondering why the Wonderful son is wonderful.....his mother is, his kids are and he married the most wonderful-former-neighbor-woman ever.

For some reason I can't explain, I have certain photos of Mrs. Wonderful and the Younger Wonderful Son that up to this blog post I have been reluctant to share. Maybe because when I look at them I cry; maybe because I think of past times with this family that can never be repeated....whatever the reason I am ready to share them now. These photos were taken on the day I had my heart attack; June 15th. Steve called Mrs. Wonderful as he was frantically following the ambulance and asked her if she could come to the hospital and get the dogs. Yup, she could....she stopped her day and drove 50 miles on a mostly under-construction-two-lane-Highway 95 that winds through the hills and mountains and took our dogs home with her. Every day that I was in the hospital and while Steve was there with me, Mrs. Wonderful drove to our house to let the dogs out of the garage and played with them....in the rain. At the holiday gathering Mrs. Wonderful, Daughter Wonderful and Matriarch Wonderful offered to help me through what is turning out to be a mentally challenging heart attack recovery rather than a physical one. Yes indeedy, they are absolutely WONDERFUL.

The photos don't need captions....they speak for themselves..... loud and clear.